Wednesday, 30 November 2016

adulting level : expert (maby not)


I have now been in coventry almost six months 

things have carried on much the way they started. the youth ministry is in a good rhythm now and things are slowly being introduced or expanded to help the growth of the church i am working at.it feels frustratingly slow at times and i am still finding my feet in many ways (hence why this is my first blog in months)  but i like the fact that the pace is slowly amping up and my days feel more full than they did when i first got here. lots of fun Christmas events coming up that i am looking forward to organising and running 

some VERY good news is that my work has expanded slightly to incorporate some work with a local fresh expressions church with anglican beginnings called urban hope (see , guys ,i haven't completely abandoned my faith roots i promise!!). this feels like a brilliant fit for me and dovetails perfectly with the work i was already as not only dose it means more work hours (thank you Jesus) but their is lots of scope to do collaborative work between my two jobs but I come to urban hope as a bit of an answer to prayer from there side of things . they where given a gift of some initial funding for a youth and children's worker and where praying for the right person to spend it on (double thank you Jesus) there have been more stable and long term funding bids put in for my job role there so please be praying that we get them. 

some of you that have me as a friend on facebook will know i graduated last month. in no small part thanks to you guys support, prayers and encouragement. i was even asked to give a short speech at my graduation ceremony. 



the only slightly bad update i have to bring is that i have to have an operation on my arm in the new year to fix a damaged nerve. but the Dr seams to think its an easy fix and that dose mean that its healing well enough to be operated on so I guess every cloud has a silver lining 

all in all I am starting to feel like maby i can handle this being an adult business after all. i even get letters about pensions and tax and boring stuff like that ... that means i am doing this correctly ? right ?  


I am looking forward to being able to spend some time back in London over Christmas and hope to get to St Luke's at some point during that time to see everyone. 

lots of love 
lauren
xx






Saturday, 6 August 2016

sent to coventry (my first update post move)


I have been in coventry a month ! 

I have been meaning to get around to writing this for some time as this blog will now be the main way i will comunicate with friends and family back home that are not on other social media particuly my church back home (hi guys) 

so here goes , the last month or so in a nutshell.

I'm officially settled in and doing well up here. its taken some adjustment. but there have been so many wonderful people that have made it as smooth as possible from my new church and the welcome has been brilliant. and I can now even make it from home to work without getting lost or using google maps (this is no small miracle because the lord has not graced me with any sense of direction to speak of) 

last weekend I had the joy of being a bridesmaid for one of my best friends at uni .I think this will get a blog post of its own in the near future so keep an eye out for that if your intrsted but here are a couple of photos of that 






 as for how the new job is going. I'm slowly getting the hang of being in the driving seat a bit more than when i was an intern. it is defiantly more responsibility. I'm getting to know the kids and they really are a great bunch ! the plan is by the time September rolls around the children ministry will restart with a new lease of life. which i think the vast majority of the congregation are looking forward  to. 

i would just like to take this opportunity to say another massive thank you to everyone who took the time to pray for me offer me words of encouragement as well as gifts of money and cards. the money has been spent on household things that I needed like bedding and towels. so its been a major blessing to have those gifts.  

hope to come and see you all soon 

lots of love 
lauren 
xxx









Friday, 15 January 2016

This . Just . Got . REAL

For those of you that don't know , I'm in bible collage. But not for much longer. As of today I'm about   4 months shy of graduating the most amazing university I could have ever wound up at. ST MELLITUS.

I've gotten to know some of the nicest and most genuine people I will ever have the privilege of meeting and have actuly learned a little bit of theology (a nice bonus )

But as I start thinking about life post smc it's starting to dawn on me that one day in the not to distant future I will have a massive massive life change to adapt to.

I'm most probebly going to be living in a different house 
Quite possibly in a different country 

Job applications and deadlines are the main things in my life right now and is scary , really scary. But more than that it's exiting and I'm never gonna have this much freedom again. 

Lots of love 
Lauren 
Xx

Tuesday, 1 December 2015

living up to my name , i hope (blogmas day 2)

Lauren Ashleigh Malone  

it means "she has been crowned victorious through Christ"

i hope and pray that i become someone who lives up to my name.

i want to be someone who walks through life knowing they have the victory , that the battle is won 

and its not through anything i did. but through the god who loves me beyond measure. that my very name means i was marked as his child way before i even acknowledged God's existence in my life   

what does your name mean , tell me in the comments

lots of love 
lauren
xxx 

blogmas , more of a candy cane than an olive branch

guys , guys , guys ! 
.
i am so sorry i have sucked as a blogger recently but i have a candy cane (olive branch) for you 

BLOGMAS !!! 

get hyped people !

i am going to blog every day in December

i am going to be doing lots of awesome things so i think you guys will enjoy following me around throughout this month 

i posted the first one just before this 

you guys if your reading this after however long it has been since i posted i love you like my cat likes stealing all the space on my bed  (a whole dam lot)

lots of love 
Lauren
xxx 

six years (and a bit) ago

on the 16th of November 2009 i became a christian 

it was one of the most unexpected and amazing days of my life and alot has changed since that day. 

i am now happier than i have ever been. 

during the coarse of this year i will be graduating st mellitus and leaving my home church to work with young people somewhere else. i don't know where that is or what that looks like yet , and that's terrifying for me. 

the idea of leaving the only church i have ever known and going to live away from of the home i have lived in on and off since the age of 13  is scary and it makes me feel way to much like i have grown up and become an adult (when did that happen , and how the heck do i make it stop) 

but what i love about being able to look back at the last six years is that i have been allowed to make my mistakes , and learn from them. with a whole bunch of people behind me telling me i have the ability to get back up 

this year feels like the first year that safety net id being taken away from me. but thats not true 

i just get to show them now that their investment was worth the while 

lots of love 
Lauren
xxx

Friday, 17 July 2015

I CANT .. Yet

I can't 

It's something I see and here far to often.
From people in almost every aspect of my life 
But particularly the ts community 

I just want to look the girls that say that in the forum  dead in the eyes and say 

I CANT IS NOT A SENTENCE 

What your looking for is "I can" or "i can't yet" 

I don't say this to make anyone feel bad or like they are not allowed to struggle with something. Because you are 

But here is the thing.

You can only fail at something if you stop trying 

Yes you can get that job
Yes you can cope with that family situation
Yes you can overcome that medical complication 

Because if I can by some mirical be 2/3 of the way through a degree. You can do whatever it is you want to do to

Stop saying you can't. It's belittling yourself 

Lots of love 
Lauren
Xxx 

Thursday, 9 July 2015

little alabaster jar of potential

one of my favorite verses in the bible comes from Corinthians

"But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us." - 2 Corinthians 4:7. 

i have always loved this verse because it just reminds me how much we have to rely on god. we are literally vestals for his spirit and not even good ones. we are fragile unassuming and cracked. we come with "stuff" already inside of us taking up room inside us that god has to work around 

we are basically the human equivalent to this 

Image result for clay jar  

but god still uses us.  

i once listened to a sermon on this bible passage and the preacher explained that in the day that this was being said it would have resonated with the audience on a much more logical level that it dose for us nowadays because in big houses people uesed to hide there tresure and most valued possetions in old cracked clay jars as a means of securaty because thieves would not think to look in them for anything of value.

i think that was one of the most valuable comparisons that could possibly have been made. some of the weakest and most vulnerable people  to the world become some of the most powerful people for the kingdom 

i guess what im trying to get at here is that when we take our broken selfs and surender them to god he mends us beyond all recognission and ueses us just as much as we will allow him to.

when the Japaneses mend a vase they repair it with gold. not only dose the gold increase the value of the vase but the fact there will never be another vase to breake the same way that makes thease vases almost invaluble 




        
and i for one think they look awesome


So , you little alabaster jar of holey potential. Don't ever think that those cracks that you see In Yourself look like anything but beauty to God

Lots of love
Lauren
Xxx












Sunday, 7 June 2015

a little inspiration from rarjad Kipling

If , 


If you can keep your head when all about you   
    Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,   
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you, 
    But make allowance for their doubting too;   
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting, 
    Or being lied about, don’t deal in lies, 
Or being hated, don’t give way to hating, 
    And yet don’t look too good, nor talk too wise: 

If you can dream—and not make dreams your master;   
    If you can think—and not make thoughts your aim;   
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster 
    And treat those two impostors just the same;   
If you can bear to hear the truth you’ve spoken 
    Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools, 
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken, 
    And stoop and build ’em up with worn-out tools: 

If you can make one heap of all your winnings 
    And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss, 
And lose, and start again at your beginnings 
    And never breathe a word about your loss; 
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew 
    To serve your turn long after they are gone,   
And so hold on when there is nothing in you 
    Except the Will which says to them: ‘Hold on!’ 

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,   
    Or walk with Kings—nor lose the common touch, 
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you, 
    If all men count with you, but none too much; 
If you can fill the unforgiving minute 
    With sixty seconds’ worth of distance run,   
Yours is the Earth and everything that’s in it,   
    And—which is more—you’ll be a Man, my son!


Sorry I've not been blogging. Have a little inspiration to tide you over till I can find the time to catch you up

Tuesday, 12 May 2015

maybe it wasen't always like that

so , yesterday. i was sitting there in the courtyard of my top London theological collage drinking my Starbucks and talking through the list of questions my friends and i had been given to go through for the session (our tutor  had let us take class outside because we where in discussion groups and the weather was nice) 

when it hit me . 

when did i become that person that people look at and get jealous of what looks like there perfect little life.

it was brief , but i saw the look i got given by one of the people passing by me on the street

i know the look because i used to give enough of them myself. the "ugg i wish i was that lucky" look and the they dont know how good they have it" look

it made me wonder just how many people i gave that look to in the past had , just like me . clawed my way to where they are. 

maybe it wasn't always like that for them , i don't know their story

i always imaged the people i saw with life's i envied as these spoiled self entitled brats that wouldn't know hardship if it came up and hit them round the face. and for some reason i never once imaged them appreciating what they had 

i just want to say. to the lady that looked like she wished she had it easier when she saw me.

i promise hasn't always been this easy
i promise i don't take it for granted , not for a single second 

you made me realize i am now on the other side of that spectrum and its the most surreal experience ever 
i promise i will do everything i can to give back

and i hope you get to experience the same feeling i did yesterday one day 

lots of love 
Lauren  
xxx


Thursday, 30 April 2015

It's not going anywhere

Recently I've been feeling happy , like resdiculosly happy with the way things are going for me 

Work
Uni
Friends 
Family 

It's all going so well !! And I don't say this to brag or to boast. I hope you guys are feeling the same and I'm sorry if for whatever reason your not 

But the rbest a on I bring this up is because I have been kind of on edge waiting for it all to crash down around me. Like it's almost to good to be true.

But that's not the case. God dosent put these things into your life just so he can be spiteful and take them away. They are given to us so that we can enjoy them and ues them to his glory.

So , this past Sunday. I was at the youth service at my church and just felt this overwhelming feeling of fear of these things being taken away.

I got a good friend of mine to pray for me and I honestly feel so so much more secure.

So I guess what I'm trying to say to you guys is this . 

God has given you so many Awsome things . Ues them  and enjoy them

Love 
Lauren
Xxx

Thursday, 19 March 2015

How can you still belive in God after THAT

I got some bad news yesterday ..

A friend of mine passed away. You know the one from my last post.

And it HURTS to go through stuff like this .. It always will. That's no great shock to anyone

But one of my other friends looked at me when she realised that I was not only mourning the loss of a friend but Alls trying to get through the fact it's my other friend who sadly passed away last Aprils birthday and said

"How can you still belive in God after all that"

And I felt like I should expand on my awnser a bit and  have it as a blog post 

So , how on earth can I belive in God when all of this nasty stuff is going on around me 

Well there ex are two awnsers to that question.

The first is this. It's times like this when I have to belive in God and hold on to him the most because I promise you .. It's the only way I'm ever gonna get through it. 

Secondly. It's in the valleys of life that you learn the most about yourself and the true character of those around you. You realise just how strong you are and the meaning of the word resilience 

Although it may not seem like it , God knows what he's doing.

This post is for Amber. Who was quite possibly this blogs biggest fan and told me so on a regular basis. 

And for Katie who I miss more and more every day 

Sunday, 15 March 2015

When havering turners syndrome becomes very "real"

Hi guys ! 

So if you have been reading for a while you will know that I have a condition called turned syndrome.

Normally it's not somthing I even think about in my day to day life besides having to take my medication.

However recently it has been hammered home to me just how much of a big deal it can be

I've seen so many scary health complications in the other girls with turners that I tallk to that I'm forced to deal with the fact I do actuly have a health condition that can manifest in some pretty nasty ways.

I guess it's just like I said a while back

Even superman has cryptonite

I made this post as a bit of a reminder to myself and to all other girls with ts out there

Get checked , make sure your on the right meds. You deserve to live as long and as healthy a life as you Possible can.

Lots of love
Lauren
Xxx

Friday, 16 January 2015

Guess who's back !

Back again .. Lauren's back ... Tell a friend.

Please say you all sang that to youeselfs .. Great

Hi friends , fellow Christians and the occasional random internet stranger that acsidently stumbles across this blog and is reading it anyway.

You guys ! I've missed blogging. 

But life has been compleatly manic 

So I've come to the sudden and startling realisation that I haven't blogged since like December .. For my utter lack of being a decent blogger I can only apologise 

But uni essays have been kicking my butt. However , there is hope.. Both of the essays that where the main purpotraiters of sucking my time and happiness away from me are now handed in *victory dance* 

Confession. It's not just essays that have prevented me from having time to blog 

Christmas and new year happened ! 

So joyux Noel guys. Hope you had a good one. I know I did

My family where over from Canada and having the opportunity to just chill with them was awsome.

And all I can say is .. I'm a spoiled little brat when it comes to Christmas pressents 

I got to go hang out with a certain famous mouse I'm sure you have all herd of


I also ended up with a chest infection and layringitus to get over once I got beck.

So blogging now resumes !!! Yay

Lots of love
Lauren
Xxx

Thursday, 4 December 2014

even superman has kryptonite

have you ever looked at someone and though well DAYM kid you got it figured out.

you know the type of people i am on about
 with the better time management than you.
the better grades
and apparently God gave them a double dose of anointing because there ministry is booming 

well recently i have been seeing a lot of people in this light. ive just been thinking how do you do it

then it struck me ..
"even superman has kryptonite"

i dont know what they are struggling with under the surface

like for all i know they could be looking at me right now and thinking the same thing about me 

you just dont know.

so from this thoroughly not together individual 

   

to you. i hereby give permission to be as untogether and not sorted as you need to be

lots of love
lauren
xxx

Saturday, 29 November 2014

It beginning to look a lot like ... CRAZY

So you all know my blogging goes way below par during summer with all the touring I do with family and church commitments. 

Well guys have this as your pre warning. 

Christmas and new year are going to be the same this year

With my new job , work commitments and a church calinder as stuffed as your average Christmas turkey (see what I did there!) blogging will probebly have to take a back seat over the holidays 

I promise you guys I will make it up to you with Awsome picture filled awesomeness as and when I can 

I'm starting to feel the strain on my time already. But wach this space and I will keep you as in the loop as possible 

As always 
Lots of love 
Lauren
Xxx

Tuesday, 18 November 2014

5 things I've learned about being in church leadership

five years ago today on sunday 16th of november. i met jesus

ive been a christian 5 years
and in leadership for almost three of thouse
Here are the 5 most important things about church leadership I've noticed in that time

1) it's a massive privilege 

Being in a place of influence in a church is amazing. And that privalige is not lost on me. Looking out at a congregation of people you have grown to regard as family. And realising that they trust you is one of the most humbling feelings I think I wil ever experience

2) it's not about status 

Having the role of a pastor of a church and a badge with your name on it dose not make you a leader it is how you live that out in your charicter and your integrity that matters are you the same person on a Sunday night preaching as you are on a Friday night out with friends ?

3)to lead , you need to be led.

Real honesty accountability is so important here. Find somone you trust and make sure it is there job to keep you in check spirituly. Let's face it , would you trust an overweight personal trainer ? The same consept applies 

4)it would be easier without the people 

Working for Christ means working for his people. That's not always easy, but it's definitely worth it in the end 

5) it's a calling

Did you ver hear the joke about the girl who thought she had a better life planned out for herself than God then accidentally ended up going his way in the end .. HAHAHAHA so funny. 

Seriously if your called into ministry gods gonna have his hand on it. 

And whilst you may not be called into ministry every single person is called into mission. If that's to feed starving orphans .. Praise God . If that's to be the most Christ filled accountant ever. Amen 

Your mission feild is where your standing right now. 

Lots of love 
Lauren
Xxx



















Sunday, 16 November 2014

being a "spiritual wingman"

 *sermon given 16/11/2014*

So I’m preaching on something called intercession today.

 And I spent a little while trying to think of a less complicated way of saying intersection.

 So it’s praying for your friends and its pointing them towards Jesus. It’s having our friend’s backs when they're struggling as a Christian. Then I got it...

"Spiritual wingman / wing woman" that’s basically all it is.

Who here has ever watched how I met your mother?

So for those of you who don't know there is a guy called Barney and he is always trying to set the main character ted up with a date. And in an effort to introduce ted to these girls Barney plays a game called "have you met ted" where he constantly puts ted in the position where he is face to face with this girl. Giving him the opportunity to ask for her number.

Now intersection is a bit like that in that our aim when we are praying for our friends is to constantly put our friends in the position where they have the opportunity to find out about Jesus.

the thing is its very much in jesuses nature to answer "you do it" as in , ok you have a heart for your friend. go searv them . go be my hands and feet in this situation. take my love to them. 

 That might start small like a friend asking you what you did over the weekend and you just mention in passing that you came to kingdom overflow. Or if perhaps you’re closer to this person and they say "oh I’m having a hard time right now” you ask if you could pray for them or invite them to church.

The bible is full of some really great stories of intersection but the one I have decided to talk about is one that I love because I think it has four of the coolest spiritual wingmen in the bible. This is a very famous biblical story in mark 2 1-12. It’s says this

2 A few days later, when Jesus again entered Capernaum, the people heard that he had come home. 2 They gathered in such large numbers that there was no room left, not even outside the door, and he preached the word to them.3 some men came, bringing to him a paralyzed man, carried by four of them. 4 Since they could not get him to Jesus because of the crowd, they made an opening in the roof above Jesus by digging through it and then lowered the mat the man was lying on. 5 When Jesus saw their faith, he said to the paralyzed man, “Son, your sins are forgiven.6 Now some teachers of the law were sitting there, thinking to themselves, 7 “Why does this fellow talk like that? He’s blaspheming! Who can forgive sins but God alone?”8 Immediately Jesus knew in his spirit that this was what they were thinking in their hearts, and he said to them, “Why are you thinking these things? 9 Which is easier: to say to this paralyzed man, ‘Your sins are forgiven,’ or to say, ‘Get up, take your mat and walk’? 10 But I want you to know that the Son of Man has authority on earth to forgive sins.” So he said to the man, 11 “I tell you, get up, take your mat and go home.” 12 He got up, took his mat and walked out in full view of them all. This amazed everyone and they praised God, saying, “We have never seen anything like this!

Now think about how packed our church gets at Christmas and Easter time. And this is a big building. Now imagine trying to fit that amount of people in your house. Now think about if JESUS showed up at your house in person just to hang out and preach the word. Could you imagine the complete chaos of trying to fit everyone in. well that’s basically what’s going on here when the four friends show up.

I don’t know if you have ever tried to carry a sleeping toddler when they are so fast asleep that they just become like this dead weight. Well when someone is paralysed they are that dead weight but adult sized. So this wouldn't have been easy for these four guys. But what I think would have been more exhausting was the weight of him spiritually on them. Have you guys ever had to carry a friend through a tough time spiritually and emotionally? It’s exhausting and emotionally draining. You know why that is, it’s because guys we are just not designed to carry people spiritually the same way Jesus is, we can’t bare the weight of their problems as well as our own.

Now I imagine these four guys saying to the paralysed man. We are almost there. You’re going to meet Jesus. Then turning the corner into the little street where Jesus was and seeing the massive crowd and being like "you have GOT to be kidding me”. They have promised this friend that they will take him to meet Jesus, they want to stick to that promise

 So the four guys immediately start looking for a way to get this guy to Jesus because not only did they promise him but he is simply too heavy to carry any longer both physically and spiritually. They are entirely focused on getting there friend in front of Jesus and at this point failure is just not an option.

then one the guys has this pure genius plan to push through this crowd get up onto the roof and dig a hole in this roof and lower him down like some ninja in bank heist movies where there are motion sensor on the floor like , what ? This is how desperate these guys are to get this guy to the foot of Jesus. I don’t know about you guys but I think I’ve got some pretty fantastic friends. I am ot sure they would commit vandalism for me though.

These poor guys get up on the roof with the paralyzed guy. Now the thing that struck me was. They hadn't managed to get into the house so they wouldn't have known what room Jesus was in. they had to lean in to the roof and listen out for him. And I think that is the KEY point about intercession. Your main job is to listen out for Jesus and when you hear his voice. Remove as much of what’s between your friend and Jesus as possible. And that exactly what the four friends did them here Jesus and start just ripping at this roof like crazy people.

At this point in the story I would have loved to see Jesus’s face as bits of mud and stuff started falling on his head. Because if stuff started falling on my head right now and someone interrupted my sermon I would first be super confused then I would find it kind of rude that they didn’t wait until the ministry time to ask me for prayer

But nowhere in this story do we see Jesus get mad at these guys and you know why I think that is. I think it’s kind of similar to what Jesus dose for us he carries us to the father via the cross. Breaking down every barrier between us and God. He rips the metaphorical roof in our life. The veil which separated the holy place in the temple where Jews thought God was in the temple. Literally ripped when Jesus died releasing us into Gods presence.

Now we get to my favourite bit. Can you imagine how awkward the paralysed man is when he gets in front of Jesus like "hi, very sorry to interrupt your sermon and this is extremely aqward. Sorry about the slight vandalism but kind of need your help here Jesus"

 The way Jesus responds takes everyone by surprise especially the Pharisees. who were like the religious big wigs of the time who were waiting for Jesus to trip up so they could arrest him he doesn't start by saying "get up and walk" that’s not jesses priority for the man. He sees the paralysed mans heart and realises there is a much bigger problem spiritually for him to attend to

One thing I’ve noticed in my five years as a Christian is that Jesus fixes things from the inside out. As a lot of you know I have several health problems which god is either healing or teaching me to use for his glory. But you know I never got healed from any health trouble until god had come into my biggest problem which was my heart and my need to feel acceptance.

You see the biggest miracle Jesus will ever do is on the inside. We as humans long to see our friend heal of all sorts of things but sometimes Jesus has a bigger miracle to do than the one you where praying for. Im sure you have had that feeling when you have prayed for someone and noting happens and you feel that pulse of disappointment in the pit of your stomach.

That’s how I felt every time I prayed for my granddad for the last six weeks of his life.  But guys I was praying for the wrong thing. I just wanted him to wake up and start making sarcastic comments about the room service in hospitals. But that’s not what Jesus decided to do. Jesus decided that on Tuesday the third of February he was going to make himself SO evident in that place. I was reading the gospel of Luke at my granddads bedside. He wakes up more than he has been awake in months and says “don’t you worry about me. I’m going to be fine” I can’t explain how I know this but I just knew that that was my granddad saying he had found Jesus. Two days later on the fifth of February he went to meet him   

So that’s why Jesus deals with what’s on the inside first. The outside physical stuff is secondary.

Getting back to the bible passage. Like I was saying. The Pharisees are looking for a way to make Jesus look like a criminal. And Jesus has just given them a whole heap of ammunition by forgiving this guy’s sins that according to them is not his job. i am Paraphrasing here but what they thought was something like “oh no he dint just do that”. But they don’t want to cause a drama so they don’t say anything. Jesus however is totally game. And knows what they are thinking. So he leaves this paralysed guy laying there in the middle of a crowd all confused.

Side note: the four guys who brought the paralysed man are still watching this through the hole in the roof probably with that same disappointed feeling I just spoke about  

He goes up to the Pharisees and in a much more eloquent Jesus like fashion says “oh yes I did, watch me do it again”

Another side note: the four guys who had just about hit breaking point and where probably trying to figure out how they were going to get there friend back home look back at Jesus like Hu? What’s going on here?

So Jesus now appears back in the paralysed guy’s line of vision and says “take up your matt and go”.  Bam its not until the point where Jesus has been working with this guy so long that the four friends give up hope of ever seeing him healed do they start to see the fruit of all the work they have put into getting there friend in front of Jesus.

But that’s the thing about being a spiritual wingman or woman we very really see anything for the work we put in. everyone’s walk with god is so personal and so individual that we often don’t see even 5 % of what Jesus is doing in someone’s life. The four people who chose to sacrifice their  time and energy did finally get to see him healed and do you know I would have loved to have seen their reaction when they got to walk back home not carrying there friend but walking alongside him.

But having a heart for intersection will more often than not hurt it will be exhausting and sometimes you’re not going to see a miracle like the four guys in this story did. But I can assure you that Jesus sees you when you have an authentic heart to see him breakthrough in your friend life and he will honer that. It just might not always look the way you hoped it would.

  


Tuesday, 4 November 2014

spirit lead me where my trust is without borders ..

anyone who has gotten anywhere near a christian worship session in about the last year will have heard this worship song 


(play this while reading if you like)

the lyrics go a little something like this

"you call me out upon the waters 
the great unknown
where feet may fail
and there i find you in the mystery 
in oceans deep" 

the song basically talks about how those of us that are christians are called to put our self in a position of complete trust in god. we LOVE singing about it. actually doing it on the other hand is a whole different concept. its hard its scary and often you feel like your fumbling around in the dark

leaving the relative comfort of the only church i have ever know to start actually serving him amongst people that haven't known me since the age of 15 and are not likely to pick me up dust me off and say "its ok you can get it right next time" when i mess up. is terrifying

but yesterday this song came onto my ipod playlist when i was on the train home from uni. and i was suddenly extremely aware of what the lyrics where saying.  ive been singing this to god for over a year. 

I ASKED FOR THIS 

what is the point in asking god to shake things up and for opportunities to step out of the boat (if you don't get that reference one off jesuses bff's genuinely walked on water check out matt 14:22) if your not going to take them 

so im taking my opportunity

im going through the training process for guys and st thomas's hospital at the moment and by the 2ed december i am going to be working there full time as part of my university course.

the way this has come about means that it is so clearly God ordained that i would be foolish not to.

lots of love 
lauren
xxx




Friday, 24 October 2014

Dear friend ,50 reasons i hope you stick around

(this post is one ive been working on since two of my good friends decided there weren't enough reasons for them to stick around anymore with in the space of a week. sadly this post comes to late for them but i hope someone somewhere reads this and realises that there are infact over 50 reasons for them to keep going.)

dear friend , 

i know right now you think it doesn't get better , i promise it dose. but in the mean time here are 50 reasons i hope you stick around 

1) your not done yet

with life , with friends, with family .. trust me there is so much this world needs you for.

2)your family/friends 

i bet you can think of at least 5 people whose world will never be the same without you in it and who would give anything for you not to feel this way right now 

3) " you don't want a permanent solution to a temporary problem" - hannah hart



not my quote but i wish it was. everything is temporary the way your feeling , the problem your faceing it will all pass at some point and im sure you want to be around to see that.

4)chocolate

my friend , do you want to leave a world where mistrals exist .. come  on

 

5) kid president 

this little dude restores my faith in humanity with every video he makes.



6) laughing

at some point , your gonna laugh , like really laugh so much it hurts your ribs. think back to the last time that happened to you 


7) grace helbig. 

shes hysterical



8) your wedding day ..

someday your going to meet the guy/girl of your dreams and your gonna do the whole wedding thing. again , another thing to look forward to


9) kids

the logical order of things once your married. kids right ?. that tiny human needs you and will look up to you in ways you cant even imagine right now. but thats never going to happen if you don't keep putting one foot in front of the other and get through this right now

10)  graduation.

if you haven't graduated high school / collage / uni yet just think about how far into your course you are and how much work you have put into it. now just imagine the sense of accomplishment you will feel when you get that certificate. if you already graduated , you did it . see you can acomplish stuff look how far you have come

11) your pets


         

  
12)  quitting now would be letting it win

and your rocky freaking bowboa dude . you cant lose . your a winner

13) pizza hut

we live in  a world where you press a button  and people give you pizza . you can littraly even stay in your pjs and get pizza






14)  sunsets .. (i know its cheesy but look ..)




15) netflix 

this is pretty self explanatory.  but combined with nubers 4 ,13 or 16 .. possibly even  number 11 if there in a cuddly  mood. you will see why it made the list

16) ice cream



any flavour you want . as much as you can handle.

17) great british bake off

even if you just watch it for the innuendoes , its brilliant

18) christmas and  thanksgiving (if your from the other side of the atlantic)

so so many great things about the holidays. pick your personal fave

19) proving someone wrong

that moment when you get to sit there and watch someone eat humble pie

20) that moment when you first realise you have a crush ..

in instantly revert to a clumsy giggling bag of hormones. we've all been there and its awesome and adorable to watch from the outside as well

21) that other feeling when you finally get to kiss them

even better than realising you like them .. if you haven't experienced this yet. trust me its worth sticking around for

22) watching a baby try lemon for the first time

random , funny. you should youtube it

23) that one bare that waves at people ..


  

 24) that one awesome dude that does brilliant parodies





25) greys anatomy got good again

greys anatomy has become worth watching again .

26) viral youtube videos ..

you never know when the next funny youtube vid will be out.

27) this kids reaction to going to disney


28 ) come to think of it , DISNEY.



how that isn't on the list yet i don't know.

29 ) the fosters




30) there are still good people in the world

you just got to find them

31) high school is just 5 years out of a whole lifetime

and if you stick around thats an average of 90 years .. think about it

32) your not doing the world a favour by leaving 

right now you might feel like you're doing it for everyone else's benefit. that is not the truth

33) that moment when your crush/ significant other looks at you like your the only person in the whole world 

another one worth waiting for if you dont know what im talking about

34) cheeseburgers 



because calories are yummy

35) this does not eliminate the chance of life getting worse it just stops it being able to get better

very true statement

36) the world can't afford to lose you and robin williams. it just cant 



37) hot chocolate 




38) friends reruns 



even a possible reunion movie !

39) the harry potter series




40) hollidays 

think of the last holiday you went on where you could chill out on a beach or whatever you get up to on holiday

41) sarah milligan

 

42) russell howard

  


 
43) this 




















45) i for one would love to here the rest of your message



46) lilo and stitch





47) this quote from walt disney



48 ) the fact that i still think about these two every day 






just incase you still dont think you would be missed


49) it truly does get better

50) ive been there 



and i promise its worth battling through

lots of love
lauren
xxx